Lil' Markie

lil_markie @ 2004-12-28T06:02:00

2004-07-15T10:04:45Z

Today my mother killed me.

lil_markie @ 2004-12-24T06:00:00

2004-07-15T10:04:13Z

I wonder if my mother hears the delicate beat of my heart.

Some children are born with sickly hearts, and then the gentle fingers of a doctor performs miracles to make them healthy.

But my heart is healthy.

It beats so evenly.

"Tap Tap, Tap Tap"

You shall have a healthy son, Mother.

lil_markie @ 2004-12-13T05:47:00

2004-07-15T09:50:00Z

My eyes are almost fully developed although the lids are still shut.

When Mother brings me into the world it will be full with sunshine and overflowing with flowers.

I have never seen a flower, you know, but more than anything I want to see my mommy.

How do you look mommy?

lil_markie @ 2004-12-11T05:46:00

2004-07-15T09:49:02Z

My hair is growing.

It is as bright and shiny as the sun.

I wonder what kind of hair my mother has.

lil_markie @ 2004-11-25T05:44:00

2004-07-15T09:47:33Z

Today is Thanksgiving.

My mother and father are probably thinking about a name for me.

And they don't even know that I am a little boy.

So they are probably calling me "Barbara."

Haha, but I want to be called Andy.

I am growing so big.

lil_markie @ 2004-11-20T05:43:00

2004-07-15T09:46:06Z

Today the doctor told my mother that I'm living here under her heart.

HOW happy she must be!

Are you happy Mother?!

lil_markie @ 2004-11-12T05:43:00

2004-07-15T09:45:15Z

Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands.

So small they are.

One day I'll stroke my mother's hair and tell her how nice she is.

lil_markie @ 2004-11-02T05:40:00

2004-07-15T09:44:18Z

I am growing continually.

My arms and legs are taking shape, but I must wait a long time before these tiny legs will raise me to my mother's arms.

lil_markie @ 2004-10-25T05:39:00

2004-07-15T09:42:08Z

Today my heart began to beat.

It will beat softly for the rest of my life, never stopping.

After many years it will tire and stop and I shall die.

lil_markie @ 2004-10-23T05:38:00

2004-07-15T09:40:40Z

My mouth is just now beginning to open.

Just think in a year or so I'll be laughing or later I'll start to talk.

My first words will be "Mama."

lil_markie @ 2004-10-19T05:34:00

2004-07-15T09:39:11Z

I have grown a little, but I am still too small to do anything by myself.

My mother does everything for me although she still does not know that she's carrying me under her heart.

But I am a real person just as a crumb of bread is still real bread.

My mother exists and I do too.

lil_markie @ 2004-10-02T05:31:00

2004-07-15T09:35:12Z

Today my life began.

My parents do not know it yet.

I am as small as the pollen of a flower.

But it is I already.

I will be a boy.

I will have blonde hair and blue eyes.

Nearly everything is settled already.